Posted by rod on September 20, 2005, at 6:56:27
hmmm
So I have been on 50mg for over one year (or even 2?), I almost think 2.
I also have been on 150mg. That was really dumbing, so I went down to 50 again. My former doc said its *impossiple* this drug is dumbing on 50 mg because it activates all the brain regions who are partly responsible for cognition etc...
And I really believed him and almost clinged to this drug whenever someone wanted to take it away. and was really personally offended when for example my therapist said he thinks it is impossible to go to university being on so much drugs, including this bad neuroleptic. I really thought: go fu** off you *diot (sorry for that)
BUT, I have reached a point in my life thats without much perspective. I really consider(ed) stopping school and life from welfare, which actually would quite ok, moneywhise, because the rent for my apartment is very low (social appartment).
I alsoi have wasted so much time of my life eith online computer games. But gladly i cancelled my subscriptionS (yes, more than one, sadly) when I had a transient response to Depakote. At least I got over this online game addiction.And now, I have statred Clomipramine 37mg some days (~2 weeks) ago, and started to taper amisulpride the last days. And today I totally quit Amisulpride and really notice all my higher cognitive skills are coming back! And I hope this isnt just a temporary rebound. hmm who knows. But since taking Amisuplride along with many other drugs, I didnt do a thing at uni :( because I became too retarded to do so.
Its almost like some parts of me are coming back and have been away for a long time. hmmm. I might have chosen the wrong road and thought all these drugs can only have a positive effect on my cognition, productivity. Well, some so, I think, like nortriptyline, but also 100-150 or even 200mg make me quite retarded and sedated. I guess because TCAs decrease glucose utilization in the brain, which can make you "retarded".hmmm anyway. It seems I wasted some years of my life on Amisulpride and hope I can get my life right again, which means studying and working instead of quiting school and work or life from welfare at all. I would fulfill the criteria to life from welfare :( hmm sad actually.
Just wnated to say Roli is back and is ready to fight again :-))
wish me luck in a life without Amisulpride :-)
bye
Roland
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