Posted by verne on September 24, 2005, at 11:21:55
I'm currently taking cymbalta (60mgs once a day) and inderal LA (60mgs once a day). I'm seeing a regular MD but considering going back to the community mental health clinic and seeing a pdoc for a change in meds, where he wanted to try an MAOI during my last visit.
I still sleep way too much. Basically I can't stand being conscious or upright for more than a few hours at a time. I really can't see living like this indefinitely. I don't really enjoy anything and consequently don't want to move my body or do anything.
I'm completely isolated and no longer drive due to anxiety and hypervigilence involved with driving. I've alienated the few friends I had with my borderline personality behavior (angry emails and phone calls) so I'm even more trapped at home. One friend used to drive us to the park for long hikes.
Getting out for me is filling the birdfeeders, changing the water in the birdbaths, or mowing the lawn. I'm afraid to walk in any direction, besides there's no reason to walk anywhere.
I still have a friend who takes me shopping which is no picnic since I have social anxiety about that too. We go early in the morning when I defy gravity best.
I've yet to give the cymbalta much of a chance at 60mgs per day but I'm so tired of living this way. I'm not actively suicidal but really don't want to wake up every time I put my head down.
On the bright side, I haven't drank in 70 days and I have a daughter. I would say "wonderful" and "loving" but she's mad at me too.
Anyway, any suggestions on meds. Provigil? Although I'm not sure my insurance would approve it. I tried wellbutrin but it caused too much agitation. Perhaps, Emsam is a possibilty if it ever hits the pharmacy shelf.
Verne
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