Posted by 4wd on October 6, 2005, at 22:35:04
In reply to Slipping down badly, posted by Ilene on October 5, 2005, at 23:16:55
> I'm in the middle of a relapse that occurred out of the blue. I don't want to experience any more pain. I've already experienced a lot of misery and I just want out. Both my therapist and my pdoc have tried to talk me into going into the hospital, but I don't see how it would help me. I've been in two different hospitals before. At the first one they changed my meds around and released me. At the second one they gave me ECT, which I feel has left cognitive damage, and released me. I was in a partial hospitalization program for a few months. I started CBT a few weeks ago. I don't even remember all the different meds I've taken. The hospital might be an escape, but only temporarily. The only reason I'm staying alive is I don't want to hurt my family.
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> I just wanted to vent. I feel awful.
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> I.
Ilene,I'm so sorry. Please try to remember thought that this is a relapse. If it is a relapse, it means you were better at one time and can get better again. On Sunday night, I wanted to die. Now it's Thursday and I'm still not good but I am better. See your pdoc. There's bound to be something you haven't tried. I will pray for you.
Marsha
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