Posted by rjlockhart98 on October 19, 2005, at 21:58:04
In reply to Re: Absolute fear of insanity right now. » rjlockhart98, posted by Phillipa on October 19, 2005, at 21:06:44
I just took 5mg of Clonazepam. Zyprexa 5mg (antipsychotic). Its going away....
I get obsessive thoughts that there something wrong from the past. I pray to god, that it wont come back. Now that i think, i had midterms today again, i had to go for an interview with an excutive for something for buisness speech assinment. I had a exhasting day. This may of triggered it tonight. I started writing preanyslis where you write random words, then they turn into thoughts. Tree pool die car, then "insane" that immidatly triggered it, i erased it and said no no, stop playing with mind. Everything instesified, i went hypomanic-panic. Stillness scares me.
This may triggered the dissociative attacks had a year ago around this time, in OCTOBER.
I am going to tell myself "its going to pass", it would get so bad i would cry because it would not leave, a feeling of whats wrong and why is this happening?
You havent been the same lately, your tired of me. Sometiems people go stale after enduring someone so long.
I fear horrible things, and then get anxious about the thought. But its time now to stop it.
I've been posting so long, im stale to you, and others. Its natural.
But thank you for posting.
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