Posted by iforgotmypassword on November 18, 2005, at 17:00:20
i keep needing to pull my face up into grimaces, it's like a compulsion for my face to CLIMB. i isn't involunatary in the way i can't stop it, but when i do it adds to tension in my face and other parts of my body. i keep needing to move around hastily and incoherently and an intesified feeling of ugency forces me to need to do things, but every time i try to do them it is impossible to turn the drive into coherent purposeful actions and i just move around frantically, tensely and rigidly. its impossible for me to do anything or direct myself to do anything pointful or even to think of it. i feel like flailing my arms around and breaking things. i am not on an ssri, AP, or any medication for that matter, except hormonal, which i always forget to take anyway... ugh! its like a layer of bubbling electricity under my skin over tense rigid muscles, i really don't know how to describe it. it has happened before several times i cannot count, but it starts to go away when i'm around people, and i am engaged in social anesthesia mode. i initially thought it may underline a dopamine deficient problem, but i'm reading of (sort of) similar syptoms in parkison's treatments DURING levodopa therapy... but their symptoms can apparently show up during 'rest' or vegetative processes, but certain situations activating or using the mind can cause it to go away... but i have no idea how or if it can even relate to what i experience at all. it's likely totally unrelated? what am i experiencing here and what does it mean?
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