Posted by spriggy on November 28, 2005, at 18:02:04
I think I am just now really grasping that quite possibly, I REALLY do have a mental illness.
I was hoping all this year it would just go away on it's own (whatever the heck it is).
I have tried to pray myself better, pretend myself better, medicate myself better, etc.. has not worked.
I believed anxiety was my main symptom- Klonopin took care of that and now I am struggling (once again) with that dark, deep, hole/pit depression that makes you feel as if someone robbed your soul/spirit in the night and just left you an empty shell.
I try SOOOO hard to be well; I have a husband, two kids', one of them is autistic- I CAN NOT afford to not "be well."But no matter how hard I try- no matter how many books I read, how many supplements I take, how much I walk on the treadmill, I am still HERE.
Quite frankly, I'm just tired of pretending. I'm not okay.
I might have to see a psych.
poster:spriggy
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