Posted by Maxime on January 14, 2006, at 10:44:58
Hello
I have been in the hospital for almost 6 weeks now. NOTHING has been accomplished. Nothing. It’s very hard to be in the hospital, but even worse when you see that you are not getting any better.
I am on a weekend pass and in an internet cafe. I don't have access at the hospital or at home.
They waited FOUR WEEKS to put on an antidepressant. When I arrived I was severely depressed and had already attempted suicide … why wait so long. Their reasoning? They wanted to observe me unmedicated. Brilliant. It came to a big shock to me to find out that I am severely depressed and suicidal!!! Duh.So write now I am still on the Trileptal and clonazapam and I am on 20 mg on Prozac. I have been on that amount for almost two weeks. I told the pdoc that when I was on it before I was on 80 to 100 mg. I know that body chemistry can change, but 20 mg isn't going to touch me.
I am no better, if anything I am worse because being in the hospital is depressing. I am on a General Ward and there are a lot of psychotic patients which is a little scary. Something happened to me and now I don't even feel safe.
There is no therapy or anything during the day. We are just left to rot.
I've lost 10 pounds since I was admitted. They are not dealing with my eating disorder which is fine by me because they are even treating my depression properly!!!!
I hate it. I am depressed and suicidal. I wish my attempt had worked in November.
I hope they increase the Prozac soon. I just want to leave the hospital. I might as well not be getting better home.
Hope everyone is doing as well as they can.
Maxime
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