Posted by fiftylager on February 10, 2006, at 13:51:44
Okay, some of you have read my posts and know I have been feeling a little crazy lately. My moods have been wacked. I have been feeling anxiety, irritable, angry, and very depressed all in one day. This has been going on for 2 weeks. I have been praying to snap out of it. Well today, it seems I have. I'm not complaining except now I wonder what the hell is wrong. I still have anxiety but I have anxiety every day.
I seriously thought I was going crazy. I haven't had one of those funky spells for a very long time. I was so desperate I sent a letter to my doc. It all started with one of these crazy agitated anxiety spells I get. It just seemed to spiral. I've been so bad, I've had to take a lorazepam an hour before my kids get home from school, just to deal with them and not chew their heads off. God, I was even thinking suicidal thoughts but not near acting them out.
How in the hell do I deal with my dr. now that I am feeling more balanced? What the hell was that? It was hell. I would have taken any drug the dr. threw at me now I'm scared because all I can think is she is going to push effexor on me. I did soooo bad on celexa (basically put me in the state I was just in but worse terror wise), I can't imagine doing well on one of those drugs. I dunno.
I feel moderately depressed normally with terrible anxiety (sleep too much, eat too much, blah). It is nothing compared to what I just went through. I am really praying that I have snapped out of it and I don't return. I'm so grateful it happened now because my sons birthday is next week and I didn't know how I was going to deal with it. Does this sound familiar to anyone? Could it have been some kind of hypomania? I mean I did sleep though it was broken and had bad dreams. Any input would be great here. Thank-you!
Crissi
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thread:608345
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