Posted by spriggy on March 11, 2006, at 1:22:06
One thing I know for sure; I have anxiety (serious-major-pain-in-the-butt anxiety), and at times, I have this dark, gloomy, heavy cloud of depression.
The depression isn't as bad as the anxiety because it doesn't last as long (usually just for 3-5 hours and then it's gone).
However, I notice that the week before my monthly cycle (Too much info? ROFL), I have a mixed state of anxiety AND depression.
It's seeming to get worse lately; I don't know if my hormones are whacked or what.
I know SSRI's are NOT for me (well unless I want to be back in the psych ward), in fact, I got much, much worse.
So what options does someone like me have?
I am scared to try medicine but here lately, I'm scared to stay this way too.
I think I'm self medicating with stupid things like Nyquil (just at night to sleep and escape the anxiety) and I know this isn't good.
I take .5 of Klonopin (which I don't think helps much anymore but if I take more of it, I feel like Zombie woman).
Sometimes, I think I should attempt the dreaded Effexor or Cymbalta but am afraid of another total wig out like on Lexapro.
Any thoughts?
I am not sure what my main symptom is to even tell a doctor what I need treatment for; is the anxiety causing depression OR is the anxiety a symptom of depression.
I just don't know.
It's not black or white for me; it's like spots of both with mixtures of weird grey.
I can't even have "normal" depression. *sigh*
poster:spriggy
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