Posted by tessellated on March 14, 2006, at 18:52:59
In reply to Re: Tyler lol....... » willyee, posted by TylerJ on March 14, 2006, at 11:39:05
Guys,
I think we should start a fan club.
I got a script about a week ago and shot up to 80 the second day. And have only slept two nights since. I started a thread.
http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20060310/msgs/619892.html
If you guys can i'd appreciate feedback.Now I'm something of a geek, i have a biofeedback device and have meditated since childhood. So what i noticed was this distinct sensation of activity all around the middle center of my brain, that wasn't there before. It felt i suddenly had turned a telegraph line into the brooklyn bridge.
Moreover, i had several forms of recreational substances around i had been using as stop gap antidepressants. When I took these alone, i could feel the distinct sensation almost pressure applied to a part of my brain in the center and to the left like in the middle of my head just below my ear. On parnate, everything is like 10xmore potent, but i can't feel that acute isolated anatomical structure anymore. i assume is my ventral tegmental dopamine button. Basically my impulse to self medicate is almost anihilated.
I used it xyrem after my father passed away. During the 3rd xyrem withdrawal (and our invasion of iraq). I think I understood what it was doing to me. I think its similar to parnate in that it has an empathogenic quality. I was uncontrollable empathic, to near total absurdity. I'd could fall apart perceiving any organism in pain. It has a touch of hallucinogenic effects as well-so everything became spiritually, intellectually, emotionally intense and i think contributed to a gnarly case of gastritis/GERD.
I feel similarly with parnate, but on parnate i can actuallize things more. though it seems like i'm spending my whole life on this board :)
I think you've created some sort of hypersensitivity for yourself-duh. Only longer breaks will be likely (in my experience) to let those receptors readjust. ..
I think I noticed side effects from xyrem lasted perhaps six months. Though its hard to isolate its effects from my own depression etc...I almost think that this is my pattern.. Six months on something, then 2months off, then six months on again. Like parnate.
ps: my source for online parnate is open for biz again and like a third the cost of the stuff here.l8
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