Posted by CEK on March 27, 2006, at 9:50:57
In reply to Re: AP's for jumbled thoughts » krystee, posted by SLS on March 27, 2006, at 7:03:29
You sound so much like me. How are you able to concentrate in school? I couldn't do it on antidepressants. My mind is in a total fog on them. What kind of doctor prescribes your antidepressants? My nurse practioner was the one to first put me on the Effexor. I never took anything until then. Although it took the edge off and I wasn't so irritable, I was still never happy. I no longer enjoyed anything in life that I use to. I didn't even feel love for anybody as bad as that sounds. That on top of wanting to binge on everything in site is what made me want to get off of the Effexor and see if something would actually take away my depression. I also wanted to sleep all the time and had no energy. I had to make myself get out of bed and I thought there had to be something that helped me live my life other than this. For 6 years I just delt with life, not lived it. The AD really made my mood swings worse. I was all over the place! My uncontrollable anger was more controlled but I felt deep hatered inside all the time and wanted to get revenge on everyone that ever hurt me. I have trouble letting go of things. I tote this baggage around all the time making me miserable. When I went on Cymbalta the anger was back in full rage and I was ready to act on it all the time. I had never realized that the mood swings were not normal. It wasn't until I started looking at Mental Health websites that I found out it was a disorder and that there was treatments for it. This was in Feb. when I found this out. I lived like you did all these years dealing with it. My husband doesn't understand it because he doesn't feel this way. The doctors that I have seen lately say they can't believe that no one has never put me on a mood stablizer before. They all now insist that I need one. I don't think my nurse practioner really understood all of it, that's why all she did was give me an AD. The psychiatrist in the mental health hospital that I was admitted into for the suicidal thoughts in Jan didn't even recognize my mood swings as being a disorder since I didn't have "manic" episodes. It wasn't until I got 2nd opinions before I found doctors that thought I needed more help than just an AD. I do wish you luck and hope that you don't just keep dealing with how you feel. I think if I would've sought out better more in depth treatment years ago, I wouldn't be as bad off as I am today.
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