Posted by gardenergirl on April 7, 2006, at 0:18:47
All day I've been trying to come up with a good description for how I feel. I've been feeling not myself for the last couple of days. I'm talking a lot, which is actually not new (blushes), but my boundaries are loosening up. I feel like I'm zipping open my brain and saying, "See! Here's what I'm thinking or how I'm processing what you just said." Bleah. I'm driving myself crazy worrying that I'm driving others' crazy.
So I finally came up with the "right" word for how I'm feeling. I'm overstimulated. I feel like I do sometimes when I'm at a conference or some other really stimulating event that goes on for hours or days. I find myself sort of spiralling up and up in order to keep going if I don't take time out to close my eyes and reduce stimulation.
Okay, now to get to Provigil and caffeine (see, I'm still talking too much)...Once I realized I feel overstimulated, the light bulb went off. Duh, I'm now taking a stimulant! It hasn't affected me like this up until this week. Today seems the worst, and I realized that I'd had much more caffeine than I usually do (for rather stupid reasons). So I'm guessing that the combo of 200 mg Provigil and more caffeine than usual (maybe about the equivalent of 4-5 cups of coffee) might be causing this.
A question: Does Provigil take some time to build up in your system? Could it be that my blood levels of it are reaching a point where maybe 200 mg is too much? I just started taking 200 mg last week. I started on 100 mg.
And second: Does this make any sense? I've actually been hypomanic once due to an antibiotic of all things. This doesn't feel quite like that. It just feels more like I'm wound up a tiny bit. Not physically restless. No racing thoughts. Just some trouble with inhibition, I guess in that I say much more of whatever occurs to me. And given my ADHD, that makes for interesting conversations.
I also can't rule out the possibility that my therapy session this week has triggered something. Heck, maybe it's a little of both.
Please someone tell me I'm not losing my mind, going into some new set of symptoms, or some other scary thing.
I'm hoping I can just cut back the caffeine to minimal.
Any input is greatly appreciated.
gg
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