Posted by willyee on May 15, 2006, at 18:08:45
In reply to Re: Is there a difference? Suicide and just wishing? » willyee, posted by Larry Hoover on May 15, 2006, at 15:07:41
True i cant say that is the case everywhere...in my state or just with the area im in i believe it is.........kinda scary some of the things i read.....especialy about having a hear attack from stress,ive never felt so srongly before about wanting to be taken seriously,now that i do my greatest fear has come to be that no one around me is taking me seriously enough.
I sit and watch my family out side working on a project like fixing something,a part of the fence etc,something always needs to be done of course,and i wonder how they could take projects around the house serious when they have a son who is in such agony,i know when my father lay in a hospital bed semi recently he was the concern of everyone,the world stopped until we knew he was ok,.......do i not deserve even half of that sympatahy?
I wish the ilness had a look like a broken leg would,maybe thats why,maybe i just come across as a over sized whinner?? I do think sometimes how nice it would be to have a heart attack,then as everyone sits around trying to figure out what happened,maybe itll pop into there heads all the times ive been telling them something is seriously wrong and i need help.
Of course part of me feels guilty to feel like this,but the consequenace of not helping me at the moment is something my entire family is responsable for.
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