Posted by blueberry on May 27, 2006, at 6:30:30
Four days into lamictal I thought I was doing ok, just dealing with side effects. Also taking 2.5mg zyprexa.
Friday afternoon I felt an intense depression coming on and it got worse and worse. By dinner I was crying and in despair. Called my doctor. She said double the dose of lamictal, have something to eat, and watch TV with my daughter, stop the negative thinking. But I couldn't eat and I would have frieked out my daughter bigtime if I sat there sobbing in front of her.
It was cold and raining. I walked to the beach, took my shirt off, laid in the sand I figured I would die of exposure. If I could just get through the shivering part, I would enter that part where you actually feel warm and numb close to the end. Not sure how much time went by, but I was shivering with intense convulsions. Something told me to get up and go home. Could hardly walk. Six inch steps, very drunk-like, shaking uncontrollably, delirious. Went to bed. Woke this morning still crying.
Never in my life have I been this bad. Never have I actually tried to kill myself before. The only thing that changed was the addition of lamictal 25mg.
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