Posted by cecilia on June 24, 2006, at 19:38:11
In reply to Re: I HATE EMSAM I HATE EMSAM I HATE EMSAM- Ed_UK, posted by Declan on June 22, 2006, at 12:16:06
What does depression mean? I don't know what it doesn't mean. I can't comprehend when people talk about "remission" or feeling good or wanting to get up in the morning. I've never experienced anything like that. I can't even imagine it. There's only bad, worse, and worst. Emptiness. Loneliness. Fear. Self-hatred. Until I was 40 I just thought I was a defective person and there was nothing to be done. Then I started the therapy and meds go-round. I've failed every med there is, and after 632 therapy sessions my therapist told me "I can't help you, you obviously need to be depressed." So I'm back where I started, after all those horrible side effects, all the humiliation of those outrageously priced therapy sessions, I guess the reality is that I'm just a defective person. Cecilia
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