Posted by jealibeanz on June 29, 2006, at 14:35:43
How do you do it? I can't seem to manage the nerve to bring up the topic, even though I love my family doctor and have seen him twice withing the last few months.
He's treating me for anxiety/ADHD/insomnia. You'd think I'd be comfortable bringing up depression since I deal with other mental/emotional problems with him, but I chicken out. I always feel bad for coming in with complaints! To me, adding depression to the list makes me feel like I'm saying, my life is broken, I'm miserable and want to whine to you... you must fix me. I know this is not true, but it's what I go through.
I've tried Paxil, Wellbutrin, Buspar, and Effexor. I quit all because of side effects of lack of symptom relief. So I'm not even sure what kind approach he'd go after anyway. I feel like it's pointless since I don't want an SSRI, so I should just keep my mouth shut and dig deeper into unhappiness.
If I don't say something, he wouldn't diagnose me, since I'm nothing but politeness and smiles in the office. He realizes I have major anxiety, but appear to be very ambitious and otherwise fairly happy, he doesn't see the depression. (I'm sure he recognizes that anxiety deminishes life quality, so I may not be super happy unless it's controlled. He think it's somewhat well controlled right now, so I'm probably pretty happy about not be as anxious.)
In reality, I could care less about life right now and want to drop out of school just because I don't care!!! But paste on my happy smile and wonderful laughing joking attitude and face each dreadful day.
I have a physical in August. I have until then to think about this. I could try to sort of hint at it when talking about my other meds and small talk about life, but I think I'd have to really spell it out if I need help... Any advice on how to bring it up? Or if I should?
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