Posted by Questionmark on July 11, 2006, at 23:48:03
In reply to Re: Nardil - worthwhile? (YES!), posted by Robert Dott on July 9, 2006, at 3:59:21
> first off i would like to thank everyone for thier input especially questionmarks as i found it the most relevant reply to my post but thanks to everyone else who also made the effort, much appreciated! I have actually been looking at these boards for about 2 years now without ever joining and posting - just reading up on posts about SA and depression and all the different drugs used for treatment. The reason i asked about the efficacy of nardil after the formulation change is because it would have to be the U.S manufactured version of the drug I would be taking. The reason for this is because I will not go to my doctors and ask for treatment and have self medicated in the past first off with paxil, then parnate and klonopin combined. Parnate and klonopin was about 70 percent effective but I decided to come off it because of side effects. People mentioned that I seemed happier on the pills and more talkative were as before they werent sure what kind of mood I was going to be in. My depression and social anxiety has returned and when I was at a wedding recently it relly opened up my eyes when I was told by some members of my family to seek help because people were noticing that I was not saying very much and appereard down. In fact my sisters exact words were that it appeared as though the lights were on but no one was at home >>>> ie when people were attempting conversation with me they werent getting much joy - but that was me trying! And when I saw the wedding photos I was tottaly shocked at how glum i looked like the chief mourner at a funeral and everyone else was smiling in the photos. I must say the wedding was a struggle for me but i went anyway trying to be social, lol. well I am going to give Nardil a try. Not worried about side effects this time - i'd rather have a life!!Oh man, that's too bad. I remember that type of thing happening to me though before-- seeing photos or video of myself and being surprised at how "glum" (that's a good description) I look. I have found that (although Nardil probably made/makes me much more *capable* of this) just trying to smile a lot and laugh (though not overdoing it, of course) can help me feel significantly less awkward in an uncomfortable social setting-- especially when thinking back on it afterward. But.. eh, it's so much easier to talk about than to actually do. .. That, and talking in an uncomfortable social setting, and.. all of it. Just thinking back on life before Nardil makes me... cringe.
But, don't worry it'll get better. And REMEMBER-- the more you practice the easier it will get and the more confident you will get, but it takes time.
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