Posted by Karen44 on July 21, 2006, at 23:22:29
In reply to Re: Sick and tired of medications » Karen44, posted by Crazy Horse on July 21, 2006, at 11:40:24
I saw my psychiatrist today, and he said he told me to start out on the 25 mg. of Lamictal, so I will give it a try plus take the Moban at night. We agreed that it is not in my best interests to keep meeting once per week, and more often with him is logistically impossible. I already take off a half day of work to see him once per week, and so to see him twice per week which I could do, would mean missing the equivalent of one day of work per week every week. I have the name of another psychiatrist who is also a psychoanalyst, and he is closer (in my county), and so I will be meeting with him to see if we can work together. I then meet with my old psychiatrist in three weeks. I feel so horrible about this, as I really like my current doctor, but it is true that things were spilling over from Friday into the weekend and then started to spill over into the following week. I was having trouble pulling myself together. It is just such a difficult time. My brother died this week, and I almost could not stop myself from jumping in front of the METRA train to go home. I ended up turning my back and vomiting on the train platform. I have had problems with dissociating in the past, and now I am afraid I might kill myself without realizing it; this happened to me many, many years ago and is why I ended up in the hospital at Menninger's in the 1980'. I am sorry to burden anyone with this, but I am not sure what to do anymore. I sure don't want to tell some new doctor I am possibly on the verge of suicide; he would likely say that he did not think he could work with me, that there is unfinished businees with my current psychiatrist, and he would be right.
Karen
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