Posted by HeatherH on August 4, 2006, at 9:03:50
In reply to Re: Just started Effexor XR 7/26/06? » HeatherH, posted by AAA88 on August 2, 2006, at 0:08:06
I still have a really hard time every day with depression,but it's not as bad as it was when I started taking Effexor. So I guess I CAN admit,being on effexor and having really bad things happen to me,showed me that it wouldn't kill me and I would survive,all the wiser,to wake up to a new day. My panic attacks are totally gone,because when I was on Effexor I had a really bad attitude,like "*F* it,bring it on." That's the only thing good that came from it. But as the old saying goes,hindsight is 20/20. I could have taken care of what troubled me by just changing my life. I dealt with and lived with a life of misery and treated it with medicine because I was too scared to shake things up. Things eventually shook up on their own,I am alive,and I'm glad it happened because it changed me.
On the other hand,I lost the best thing I had going for me ever in my life. The attitude I had and the way I would abruptly withdraw from any worrisome situation ruined the relationship I had with the love of my life. He is managing to talk to me again lately,but I completely ruined our relationship because I was in my own little world. I lost alot of good friends,too. I let alot slip away because I didn't care. Even my mother said she thought I didn't love her anymore. So in retrospect,it did make my panic attacks go away forever,but it ruined my life because I just didn't care about much of anything. If I could go back and do it all over,I'd never be on any drug to make my sadness go away. I'd deal with it,learn to manage the feelings like I am now,and I'd probably have a great life. Right now I don't have much of anything except a few good friends who say I seem alot happier now and less withdrawn. My mother and I talk every day if I can help it,and I'm working really hard to make things better for myself. It's a long hard road,every day is a struggle. It makes you feel good about yourself every day you're drug free and complete a productive day. I'm working for a better life,and I will have it,on my OWN.
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