Posted by Donna Louise on September 16, 2006, at 5:57:43
In reply to Seeking reassurance about meds again..., posted by Racer on September 9, 2006, at 2:47:24
> Right now, I'm only on Wellbutrin, 450 mg XL. It's fighting a valiant battle, but it's losing ground daily. On top of which, my anxiety is pretty well through the roof, which leads to a cycle where I sorta shimmy between the two.
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> BUT on the WB, I don't feel stupid, sedated, etc.
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> And we're trying to get pregnant -- that is, we're trying to get ME pregnant. My husband decided he didn't want to be pregnant himself... Anyway, that means that a lot of psych meds are out of the running anyway right now. Thus, I'm putting up with feeling pretty lousy a lot of the time.
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> But our marriage counselor arranged for me to see a fancy psychopharmacologist who's not accepting patients, just the best, great with TRD, etc. That's coming up -- although I may have to reschedule it, which probably means it'll be several months from now -- and it's got my anxiety and obsessionality going in a big way. So much so I nearly quit Wellbutrin this week. Just giving up on meds -- again. Not knowing what else to do, I am writing here for reassurance and thoughts from you here.
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> What do I want? I want to tell you the problems I've had with other drugs, and hear that it's possible to get effective treatment without those problems that I can't live with. And maybe some thoughts on what meds might help. Maybe that will help me remember that there really is still hope...
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> The absolute deal breaker for me has been hypotension. I have enough trouble with that without drugs, and TCAs have triggered that every time. Nortriptyline didn't, but desipramine did. That's an obvious problem, since passing out isn't therapeutic and crawling instead of walking isn't very good quality of life...
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> Otherwise, the big three that I don't think I could do again, are weight gain, constipation, and sedation. Since even WB has me kinda lethargic -- albeit still quite anxious -- I'm not sure anything can be done about the lethargy. But those three seem to go together for me -- and the only drugs that have ever been fairly effective have caused all three. Those are also the reason I've gone off them. Oh, and sleep disturbances. I feel half asleep all the time, but I can't get to sleep or stay asleep at night.
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> Is there any hope that I can get relief without being reduced to sitting in the corner staring at the wall, wondering if picking up the remote control is worth the effort? Ugh...
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> I don't know. I'm depressed, and anxious, both. And I doubt there's anything much anyone can offer right now. It would be nice just to know that someone cares, you know?Racer, I really hear you and understand. I am in the same place, except i couldn;t tolerate WB and i am not trying to get pregnant. I do not want to tolerate the same side effects you mentioned. that is close to as awful as crying all day. but i have become practically housebound and dont know what to do about it either. I cry alot because i can't do all the things i used to and i wonder what has happened to me. it is so sad, i will make myself cry. i started a new thread about it so i won't go on repeating myslelf/ but it is nice to know that i and you are not alone.
donna
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