Posted by Chris O on October 1, 2006, at 23:06:17
In reply to The irony, posted by clint878 on October 1, 2006, at 19:15:36
I identify so strongly with your post. Just talking to the cashier at the grocery store is often a monumental task for me! It's like there is always a wall of invisible fear and shame surrounding me, and I can never make it go away. When I exercise--which I like you do frequently in an attempt to alleviate anxiety symptoms--it is often like a war going on inside of my mind. There is immense pain and confusion and a sense of worthlessness as I reflect on my inability to deal with even the most basic stresses in life. I too have been to countless therapists and taken countless drugs, all to little or no avail. However, I have kept myself in excellent health, and even taken on feats of biking hundreds of miles at a time. Of course, I always have the lovely panic attacks and bitterness to combat with while I am doing these things, so...thanks mom and dad! I just wish there was a "cure" for this condition, because I know that my brain is damaged, but I also know that many of psycho-pharmaceuticals on the market are "messy drugs" and do not get to the root causes of the brain damage.
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