Posted by nickguy on October 22, 2006, at 22:19:26
In reply to To Nick, posted by deniseuk190466 on October 22, 2006, at 17:22:11
> Nick,
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> Thanks for the support. I am going to give therapy a try but I have to wait 7 months before I get to see anyone because there is a massive waiting list for cognitive behavioural therapy.
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> My psychiatrist has pretty much told me he won't treat me anymore unless I go into hospital and then he is only going to try me out on escitalipram. I really don't see why I have to go into hospital just to try out escitalopram even my Doctor can't understand it.
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> Anyway I'll go into hospital just to humour him and while I'm in there try and find out how I can cut through the red tape and try and see somebody else at a different hospital. I feel as though my current psychiatrist has me hedged into a corner. My mum thinks my hatred towards him (and I am really starting to hate him) is unnatural and I know that it is but I don't rate him that well as a psychiatrist. He won't refer me to see somebody else as he says he doesn't feel that it is necessary. But I do!
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> Anyway, I sort of disagree with you about the suicide bit, I think it is more courageous to do it after all, all I'm doing is just sort of muddling through with the help of Zyprexa now and again, I'm just doing what I can do. Killing yourself, I think, is a very courageous and decisive thing to do, not that I would ever encourage anyone to do it and not that I'm advocating it :-)
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> I will take the Zyprexa when I have to and God help me if it ever stops working, then I would be totally messed up.
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> I'm going to print your note out anyway and show it to a friend of mine because it's sort of inspiring, it touched a nerve with me anyway.
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> Denise
Well, I think your right Denise. Theres no doubt that taking your own life would take courage, but i think it takes a lot more courage to live through pain. And suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I know it doesn't seem temporary, but everything in life is transient. I just feel like those of you who are suffering and continue to do so ( while it's just as important to try to get better) are really something valuable to the world and life itself. By suffering your getting to the depth of the human heart and the experience of life. Theres just no doubt in my mind that it is the only way for our souls to grow.
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