Posted by BryanII on November 6, 2006, at 17:03:02
In reply to Re: Lamictal, when will it ever work? » BryanII, posted by tensor on November 6, 2006, at 16:25:34
> Bryan,
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> thanks for your encouraging story. I have understood that i have to be patient with this med. However, i'm getting a little impatient because my mood is deteriorating, i'm worse now that than when i raised dosage to 100mg. I wonder why, in the beginning of this depressive episode i had more energy than now, now i barely make it out of bed.
> Being at home sick for a long period is not a good thing, not for yourself, for your relations to other people and the prospects of keeping your job. It's hard not to be frustrated and impatient.
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> /Mattias ..not screaming..Mattias,
I experienced something similar (mood deterioration). I think that it was both biochemical and thought-based. With both psych meds and thyroid hormone, I experienced backsliding on the way up; perhaps neurochemical/endocrine readjustment. Really, really discouraging. Then I started worrying about it and driving myself further down.
It was just as you describe: isolated at home, bad state of mind, bad for relationships, hard on my wife, terrible fear of losing job permanently. Frustration and impatience, even a degree of paranoia, are totally justified. You've just got to fight it and hang in there. I hope it works out. Be kind to yourself.
Confession: my wife's encouraging me to be patient and not talk BS to myself barely made a dent in my ruminations.
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