Posted by stargazer on November 21, 2006, at 19:52:47
In reply to Re: ENSAM: DAY 5.. Holding steady./Phillipa » stargazer, posted by Phillipa on November 21, 2006, at 17:30:13
Hard to belive it's only been 7 days on Ensam, feel like it's been weeks.
Today I'm tired. I've been going to bed much too late and today I got up before I was really ready to. Tonight I'll be in bed by 11, that's better than 2 or 3.
I had to call my pdoc since I only have 3 patches left and don't see him until Monday. I stopped by to see him and he gave me a sample box which contains 5 patches. When I looked inside there were at least 20 patches. Nice of him to do this for me knowing that my insurance is limited right now. Hell, he must get oodles of samples, but it's the thought that counts.
I told him I was able to do things that I had avoided for the past few months and I did it without much resistence. I told him I wasn't so sure if I was feeling all that much better. He said that EMSAM tends to energize before brightening the mood. So that's something to know, although I am very happy that I can concentrate and make some phone calls I had been avoiding. Boy, when your depression starts to lift, you realize how limited your abilities had been.
Depression is SO subtle, you don't even feel it at times but it is there, lurking and waiting for the right time to reappear, mocking your life until being challenged again...then reluctantly accepting defeat, limping away but planning it's next move, which will occur when the time is right, when it is least expected,...It is incidious and one can not be fooled by it's mere absense, it has no bouundaries.
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