Posted by jimmygold70 on December 26, 2006, at 10:59:37
As some members here know from earlier postings I was given the axe several weeks ago. Works is my best therapy against anything (second only to traveling, which is pretty expensive when you're unemployed). I worked as a senior consultant in a hi-tech company. There were two big reasons for my layoff (excluding all other excuses): impulsivity and being unable to express myself clearly. It was like talking a lot without getting to the point. But that's a chronic problem – my immediate one is to get a job, now as a team manager or – again – as a senior consultant. I've got some interviews scheduled and the thing is that I really don't function well in these. It took me 40 interviews before I got my current job and the market was much hotter back then. I was also accepted to a lower position.
What seems to go wrong in my interviews is, first of all, fear. I don't seem that outgoing as I'm usually is, and it tends to stress my interviewers as well – I can see that. That doesn't lead to anything positive. The interviewer gets offensive and my mind goes blank – I'm unable to solve even the simplest problems, I cannot recall things I've just recently done, and the whole thing becomes ridiculous. Then I might even become angry and cynical. All too bad.
So further to all the psychological work I'm doing regarding that, I'm looking for some medication that will keep me alert and calm at the same time – something that will minimized the abovementioned problems.
I was trying more benzodiazepines but that just makes me look even more stoned (I already look a bit stoned). Taking more methylphenidate makes me more alert but too edgy. Can't think of anything else.
Already taking: Paxil(paroxetine) 10 MG, Wellbutrin (bupropion) 300 MG, Concerta (methylphenidate) 36 MG, Zyprexa (olanzapine) 3.75 MG, Klonopin (clonazepam) 3.75 MG, Lamictal (lamotrigine) 200 MG
Any ideas? You help is much appreciated.
Thanks!
Jimmy
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