Posted by deniseuk190466 on January 3, 2007, at 13:41:50
Hi,
The 40mg of Seroxat that had been working relatively well for two years seemed to stop working in 2005. I remember what I was doing and how I felt when the symptoms of my depression came back. Tightness in jaw etc (doesn't sound like a lot I know but I recognise it).
So I keep thinking how could I at least get back to the place (in my head) that I was in 2003 when the Seroxat at 40mg had worked.
Prior to that I had been on Effexor for a couple of months (felt more relaxed on Effexor but still depressed), then lamical on it's own which didn't seem to do anything and then Nardil for a month which took away the anxiety but I still had suicidal thoughts on it. Whereas before the suicidal thoughts had been I cannot stand this for one moment more and I'm gonna hurl myself off a cliff, on the Nardil I felt less desperate and it the suicidal thoughts were more relaxed, I used to fantasise about a nice kindly man who would come into my room and give me an injection that would put me to sleep for ever. On the Nardil I felt less desperate, I didn't care still but didn't care that I didn't care if that makes sense.
I tried Nardil again last year in the hope that going on it and then coming off it and then going back on the Seroxat would somehow trigger the Seroxat back into working (I know this all sounds like complete madness) but this idea didn't work. The Nardil made me feel very stoned and very out of it, my speech was very slurred on it and I felt incapable of doing anything. but I did go quite high, up to 90mg, very quickly.
Because the Mirtazapine I have been taking has not been working and because the Doctor at Willow View day care centre has refused to prescribe anything else and because I have no seroxat left, I decided to give the Nardil another go as I have an almost full bottle in my drawer. Believe me I hate being like this but I hate not trying anything. I have to keep trying something.
So I've been on Nardil at 15mg for over a week and have now increased it to 30mg. I don't feel stoned like I did before, I do feel more sociable and more relaxed but I do have this uneasy feeling, this sort of feeling that something isn't right. I also feel very morbid on it.
I was wondering if this is likely to pass, how long, in other peoples experience does it take for Nardil to kick in and at what dose?
I was also wondering if I stayed on Nardil for a long period of time (say three months) afterall this is bearable, would maybe Seroxat work again at some point. I have to admit I don't know what I'm doing, I'm not even sure if my psychiatrist would go along with me continuing on Nardil and the fact that I'm taking it on my own volition because I had some left over in my drawer would just reinforce his opinion of me and give him more amunition to throw at me as being a non-compliant, controlling patient.
Just wanted to hear other peoples experiences on Nardil, or on having a break from one drug (that was working) for a long period of time and then going back on it again at a later date.
Thanks.....Denise
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