Posted by Alone on February 9, 2007, at 11:51:01
In reply to Re: Valium AND Xanax? SOMATIZATION » Alone, posted by yxibow on February 9, 2007, at 3:20:09
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> Its anybody's guess how long things will take, and I have to move forward with my life, but I'm not willing to be handicapped, I haven't lost my wit or my intelligence, I'm just hampered with a disorder I wouldn't wish upon anyone.
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>Hi Jay,Me too. My pdoc and GP refuse to say I am able to work, so I decided to start my own buisiness. I got my first client and literally froze. I couldn't move. I had to cancell the job. I kept the buisiness open and tried again year later.
It seems that when I am feeling better I can do everything and stay up all night working like crazy. Then all of a sudden it will happen again. I freeze and I can't move, I can't even clean the house.
I go up and down. When I am up it is like I am in a frenzy. When I am down, it is like some one sucked all of the will, drive, energy, & motivation out of me and I cry all day long for no reason.
But I too think that it is just a matter of time and one day I will have a life again.I am extremely embarassed each and every time I have to tell anyone I am on Disability. It really hurts my pride and my self esteem has been crushed.
But when I am on a "high" I get determined to prove them wrong and get back on my feet and be a sucessful person.
But inevitably, I crash again. But there is a person inside of me who is NOT disabled and refuses to accept it.
My best wishes to you.
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