Posted by TheMeanReds on February 22, 2007, at 15:33:57
In reply to Re: 5f Needs Lots of Butties (teehee) Help :( » TheMeanReds, posted by Fivefires on February 16, 2007, at 17:45:38
> Yep, TheMeanReads, made sense. Awaiting doc call so can't stay online long.
Sorry I didnt respond sooner, the email follow ups arent working as I thought they would.
> Yes, 'I've been kind of mean on phone to daughter'.
On lexy, and any other ssris, like paxil, I was really mean. My friends would say before a social gathering 'dont be mean'. My sarcasim just wasnt interpreted the way I wanted it to.
Now this may not be helpful advice, but I've been Bipolar all this time (5 years), but wasnt diagnosed till 2 months ago. Explains being obsessive, I cleaned A window...it had to be perfect, I put too much force into it, and my wrist went through it. Now people see my scar, and think I tried to kill myself.---
So while on the ssris I was even worse. Depression worse...everything worse that was supposed to be better. And worst of all, I'm an artist, and I just could not paint, my creativity was gone. diminished. I couldnt even remember most of my vocab. All creativity gone. Do you ever try to remember a movie title and for the life of you cant remember? I would forget my boyfriend's name....haha. (note: sarcasimistic fact, not a joke =)
> I haven't reached a point where get even a 2hr stint of 'feeling awake'. Am able to get up and function @ approx a 65% level of functioning, for maybe 1-1/2hrs midday and then maybe 2hrs eve. Otherwise, lie in bed.I know what that feels like. I couldnt get to my college classes, memorize, or even be interested in any subject. Made it through biology somehow, I think I had an easy 'A' teacher. Have you spoken to your doc about a different med? Like I've mentioned Remeron worked great for awhile, but it made me eat too much. Thats not a side effect for everyone though.
> I think must fall asleep lying stiffly in bed and don't move myself into a comfortable, guarding position, like I usually do, to protect c-spine.
My ex said I slept in the most uncomfortable looking positions. And of course I'd wake up like someone beat me up. He advised me to try to fall asleep on my back, and 'stay'. HaHa...I would move after 5 minutes. It might be worth a try though.
> Don't know if u had this, but I'm having some suicidal ideation also. Did u?
I had alot of apathy. And from time to time thought about offing myself. Reading helped me through the phases. But since I'm bipolar, I'd pull myself out of it, and just be obessed with furniture arranging, and I didnt think of suicide, my mind was at work arranging. everything.
> I live alone w/ no one to do things 4me. How did u 'function' on it for 3yrs!?? Did your doc add in something that helped???
I had boyfriends do things for me. And though I dont like mentioning or recommending it, I liked my bottle of wine/per night. It was my brain entertainment when everything was way boring.
I eventually got a script for klonopin. Since I have anxiety, it didnt get me 'high', it just leveled me out a bit. I cant function w/o it now though. Addictive. It just sustains me in a state of normality now.> My dx is GAD, PTSD, a bit borderline, and I've never really been successfully treated for my emotional/behavioral probs' with an AD.
After my mother died, when I was 19, I had PTSD(not diagnosed offically). Definately 'GAD' even though I dont think it is general, but also bipolar (even though not diagnosed at the time).
> Benzodiazepines have helped me immensely, but the docs in group I'm in, have suddenly become very anti-benzo, and are all about 'ADs with anxiolytic properties'.If you have GAD, I'd think the benzos would help. Ssris are selective, so why apply it to a general diagnosis? It doesnt make sense to me, but I'm not the scientific type. Both are highly addictive, I know that.
This website is great, at least I think so. I discovered it a few years ago.
http://www.biopsychiatry.com/
pretty sarcastic, but in the references it is very scientificy.~TheMeanReds
> So, hence, on one again.> TksSoMuch4Sharin', 5f
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