Posted by Maxime on March 2, 2007, at 23:34:20
In reply to Re: Atypical depression » Maxime, posted by FredPotter on March 2, 2007, at 21:28:52
> Maxime I'm so glad to hear from you but sorry you sound so bad. I'm pretty bad too at the moment. I'm considering asking my Dr for Nardil. Have you tried it? Weight gain can happen I think but that's better than being suicidally depressed. Maxime do you go in cycles? I tend to be good (like very good) for a week then relapse for 3 weeks. Anxiety is a big part of my problem too.
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> Also have you tried Buprenorphine? I'm going to ask about it. I'd rather be happy and dependent on a mild opiate than exhausted and broken hearted. I love life but I've lost contact with it. I miss the one I love (Life). I used to write music but the empty m/s paper lies in a heap of dust waiting for the day when I recover fully.
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> In a week I won't be talking like this. It's just temporary, but so is the recovery.
> Lots of love Maxime
> FredMy dear Fred :)
I am not doing very well AT ALL. It was strange to see my psychiatrist acknowledge (by his words and actions) that I am not in good shape.
I tried Nardil and it made me lactate and it gave me cystic acne on my back! As a man, I don't know if you can appreciate how painful it is to lactate when there is nowhere for the milk to go. It's so painful that it would wake me up at night. But I pray it works for you! You will be able to finish your music one day.
My pdoc will not let me try Buprenorphine. He doesn't believe in it, and doesn't want me addicted.
I have been severely depressed for well over 2 years now. It's my longest depression ever. Will it ever end? I am severely suicidal and I don't know what the future holds for me (will I end my own life? Will my eating disorder kill me?). I have also developed anxiety in the past year. It's awful.
Try the Nardil. I hope it works.
Love, maxime
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