Posted by liliths on March 14, 2007, at 6:42:45
In reply to Re: Tianeptine, posted by elanor roosevelt on March 13, 2007, at 23:16:41
hi elanor
it's SO frustrating, isn't it? Like you, I really had my hopes pinned on the tianeptine. But I will say it was at least a relief to discover they were most likely causing those intense mood swings - mad to sad to mad to sad to mad - ad nauseum
I absolutely hate this... and then when I read the posts about how the medications themselves have probably contributed to how bad I am now, I tend to agree with them. I'd always gone off and on meds - usually because the side effects were awful - nothing really seemed to work and my depression seemed to have a life of its own - some years it wasn't there then boom!, it'd strike. But now I've been on them for over 5 years and I can honestly say I'm far worse than ever.
Though I can't see myself going off the ADD meds - so basically all I'm taking right now is the focalin xr and klonopin.
And I take a lot of supplements. Extra magnesium and a lot of vitamins, amino acids, stuff to help control cortisol levels etc
I also just started some nootropics - piracetam & vinopectine - they supposedly enhance brain function and cognition. I have plenty of piracetam & I'll probably just use them both till they're finished. So far I don't feel anything. Still dumb as a rock LOL so I don't know if I'll re-order
So like you, I guess I'm hoping if I can gain some functionality, I can at least feel a little better. As is it, I spend more time wishing I were dead, since it's all too apparent I don't know how to live and I'm so damn tired of this perpetual torture. I'm sick of watching myself go down the toilet
I have considered re-introducing 100mg wellbutrin back into my afternoon meds but I don't know if it's worth it. I've also been wondering whether something like Aricept might help. Again, I'm thinking about functionality improving my mood because I'm at the point where I don't think they make a med that's going to improve my mood for me. I think I'm too immersed in 'depressive habits' and the truth is, without changing your behavior, nothing will really help. But it is one of those chicken & egg things. If my mood improved, would my behavior return to suuport it or am I so used to feeling awful, I wouldn't know how to act on it. I don't know anymore
I'm so fed up trying to 'fix' myself. I know I need more structure... that alone would help. But instead, I spend each day frozen... sitting and rocking and freaking out because I can't take any steps forward.
I apologize for how negative this post is. I'm sure you wished you'd never written now - ooohhhh.. that's self-pity for sure LOL I will say at least I've retained some small molecule of seeing just how ridiculous I've become and can occasionally step back and laugh at myself. For whatever that's worth :)
what are you planning on trying next?
I wish you well :))))))
namaste,
lilith> i'm sorry to hear you had the same problem with the tianeptine. the irritability was a nightmare and getting out of bed in the morning almost impossible. i thought it was the adderall but no. i was so hoping the tianeptine would work. i had even ordered more. for now i am working on the adderall and productivity. some people get by on the mood elevation for a while.
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> what are you trying next?
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> hi elanor
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> > I started to write you when I first read this but then saw you were sick of thinking about your meds so I held off... but I decided I did want to tell you I seemed to have had a very similar experience with the tianeptine and I didn't realize that was probably causing it until I read your post.
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> > Like you I've noticed I've become REALLY easily angered or so overwhelmed I'll start crying. I was wondering what was doing it and never suspected the tianpetine considering what everyone else has reported. But I'm already so damn crazy I didn't appreciate suddenly losing it in public!!
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> > anyway, just wanted you to know I seemed to have had the same reaction to the drug.
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> > And yes, the depression is ever present!
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> > be well :)
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> > namaste,
> > lilith
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> > > I just stopped the Tianeptine to see which, that or the Adderall had shortened my already too short fuse. I was getting argumentive and them teary at times. It was the Tianeptine for sure. I can't do that for 6 or 7 weeks waiting for an improvement.
> > > I am doing well on the Adderall in many ways and I can laugh at times. But the depression is lurking.
> > > Thinking about trying the Tianeptine at night. Gonna give it a bit of thought for a while. Need to get on with things besides figuring out my f*cking meds. Good luck to all.
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