Posted by jenny80 on April 3, 2007, at 10:25:15
I am 25 and have suffered from chronic depression, body dysmorphic disorder, anorexia and mild anxiety since i was 11.
I have been on most SSRIS, SNRIs, mirtazapine, lamotrigine, quetiapine, sulpiride and buspirone none of which have made any difference to my mood or symptoms.
I feel low and miserable everyday. i have no motivation to go out, meet with friends or even feed my self. I drag myself to work feeling suicidal and come home and go back to bed. Fortunately my family take care of me and make sure i bother to eat otherwise i would lie in bed and sleep the whole evening. I have little enjoyment these days and few friends who i am sure are becoming bored of me. If it was for my family I am sure i would have ended it by now either by selfneglect or some other way.
I recently met with a new psych who had started me on parnate 5 weeks ago. I took 10 mg three times a day for 3 weeks. Within this time i felt more depressed, wanting to be alone all the time, shivery cold, insomnia, profound fatigue along with periods od agitation. I also had loss of appetite which made me lose even more weight. I did not feel any improvement in mood but I know i should have persisted longer with the medication. However, i could not cope with the sideeffects which had not at all subsided within the 3 weeks of taking it.
I saw my doc today who told me to try nardil.
Have any of you had success with nardil after parnate did not work? What about sideeffects?
I am reaching the end of my tether with all this. My doc has told me that he thinks my problems are psychological because I am resistant to medication. However, i don't see this being the case. I am seeing a psychodynamic therapist twice a week and not making any progress. All she does is to try to find reasons as to why i am depressed by looking for supposed events in the past. I had a decent upbringing and can't find any events of reasons to blame for this. I tell her how miserable and apathetic I am and she agrees with me and I leave the sessions feeling i have made no progress.
i am sorry to go on like this i just can't understand why i feel this way and now my doc is making out like its all in my head.
i would really appreciate any of your comments about what i have said and about nardil and if any of you have had positive experiences from this afer trying every other medication.
jenny x
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