Posted by brooke484 on April 21, 2007, at 12:16:02
I really need help. I've been reading this board for awhile but never posted anything. I don't even know where to begin really because this has been going on for so long. My situation seems so hopeless.
I'm 36 now but developed this in college many years ago. It started with a panic attack and then all of a sudden I'm in a dream state. I didn't know what the heck was going on. I thought for sure I was going insane. Nothing looked or felt real anymore. My doctor diagnosed me with panic disorder and put me on 400 mgs of Imipramine. That pretty much cured me and
I thought it was over. Two years later I went off my meds and sure enough, 3 months later it all came back. Of course, it didn't help that I was in my senior year of college and totally stressed. So I'm back on Imipramine (450 mgs this time) and it works for a few weeks until my doctor reduces the dose to 400 and all of the symptoms return. So he ups the dose again but it doesn't work. Since then I've tried it 5 or 6 more times but it never worked again.Anyway, you can guess what I've been through the last 12 years or so because many of you are in the same boat. I've tried all of the SSRI's, anti psychotics, Nardil, Wellbutrin, Klonopin, Lyrica, Effexor, Serzone, tricyclics, etc. Nothing works.
I'm so out of it I don't even feel real anymore. I walk around in a complete daze all of the time. It never goes away. I'm not sure why I'm still here really. I mean, it's been 12 years since I felt normal. So now I'm in a deep depression and I'm also in a panic most of the day because I'm constantly questioning my sanity. I know some of you experienced this derealization feeling and got better with MAOs. I did try Nardil 10 years ago (60 mgs), but it didn't really do much. It helped with my anxiety but not the fog. ENSAM would cost me $100 a month, so my doctor is thinking about Parnate. Other than that does anyone have any suggestions? Right now I'm in the process of going off Wellbutrin, which was a total waste of my money.
I just keep asking myself, "When will this nightmare ever end?"
Thanks for reading.
Brooke
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