Posted by Deniseuk190466 on April 24, 2007, at 11:38:13
In reply to Re: Has ECT stopped anyone from being able to work?, posted by Phillipa on April 24, 2007, at 9:20:58
Hi Phillipa,
I just want to enjoy life again, I want to care if I live or die again. I know that sounds melodramatic but most of the time during the day the thought that I might just keel over and die sort of appeals to me.
I never used to feel this way about life and the medication used to help years ago, as it did for you. I had a brief period between 2003 and 2005 where the Seroxat (for some inexplicable reason) suddenly started working after a week of being on it and after 2 years of feeling like this. I actually started to enjoy life again and then the medication seemed to stop working.
I don't really enjoy anything, I just get through each day, without planning anything, just sort of going with the flow all the time and it's not a way to live as far as I'm concerned. I can still function but I don't actually feel like I care about myself or take an interest in myself anymore. Choosing what to wear for the day is an effort and yet when I'm well I love clothes and I like to think about what I'm going to wear.
So I want to try anything. I guess I'd be ok about having a poor memory if then at least I felt less depressed/anxious but then people say their memory gets screwed and they are still depressed.
But then when I see that Lcat10 (Karen) is feeling better it makes me want to try it. I can't help but feel "I want some of that".
Denise
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