Posted by iforgotmypassword on June 9, 2007, at 1:48:04
i dislodge.
this is with lorazepam. i am taking 1.5 and added another 1mg pill later on, then .5 later. it seems to be sustaining this way. i am also taking energy drinks and caffeine, but am not fully sure of their role. earlier i wouldn't have doubted it, but now i am not sure.
it is far from perfect, i am only making small steps with stuff i need to do, and lorazepam always causes poor memory with me. but i need this for now.
maybe i will add aricept (also for in case i do ECT and they are fine with me taking it during the course) or maybe galantamine, which is more stimulating, which i think i could use. caffeine is far from totally ideal. i think i perferred the softness of aricept tho. :( i am not sure.
does anyone have any theories of how benzos do this?
most of the day i cannot type anything, or even get out of bed, or change out of my stinking clothes that keep becoming urine stenched on a basis i find so overwhelming, my random incontinence is overwhelming enough, i cannot handle it. i cannot make myself change my clothes. i cannot execute anything. i am just blablabla in my head at all times, and can't force it out into real world interaction.
i have small steps i can make with lorazepam, but it is never interaction that uses any more full ability to think, and never assurance that my interactions will be unharmful or non-humiliating later.
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