Posted by AdamCanada on June 11, 2007, at 0:26:22
I tried Modafinil trial before and today I tried a 100mg from the 2nd sample box that I have left.
My social anxiety has been tremendous during my life and paxil has helped a lot but there is still a ways to go.Not to mention I have severe depression too, with low drive, low interest, low motivation etc.
Paxil has helped with that half way as well.
Of the 20 or so meds I've tried very few have helped me much and many made me worse.
But here is Modafinil....Today I had to call a girl and it seemed there was no way I was going to get through it. the social anxiety is just... always there. talking on the net is hard enough with all the anxiety but a phone call? holy crap.
So i felt why the heck not I'll try modafinil again today and be careful with it (too many days on it increases depression massively).
And what happened? I felt almost Alive. I was more social, more interesting in life around me, and I felt omg I will call this girl and not make excuses or avoid a phone conversation. So we did it and we talked for 1 and a half hours. She did most of the talking because I dont have a lot of privacy here at home but it was nice, it was very nice and my social anxiety was at a pretty low level.
What an evening. It was so easy to laugh while watching family guy and the loop and some other shows and for those 3-5 hours it was just... BEAUTIFUL to be alive. Then of course it fades... It's been fading past few hours but it's still there and it still feels nice for the most part.The problem with this miracle med is that when I took it before for 5 days I began to spiral downwards. first 2 days were so nice and wow it felt pretty good, but then 3rd day was so-so and 4th day I began to feel pretty bad. and I had fears and loss of interest and general boredom, feeling lifeless, 5th day... Wow it was really bad. It worsened my depression... forget social anxiety at that point... I was feeling dreadful period. Everything looked dark and frightening and my mind felt so dead and blank and i just didnt feel good. I may have had hot pains in my head too I'm not sure. It felt terrible.
The dosage I took was 100,100,200,200,200
those 5 days.
maybe 100mg can be ok? I wish. But the longer I took it the worse I felt.
It seemed like such a short term miracle and therefor seems perfect for times when I can really use a pick me up but i need something long term.
What on earth can help me long term with depression, low drive, low motivation and expecially social anxiety?
It was nice while it lasted.
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