Posted by Fivefires on June 25, 2007, at 19:47:29
In reply to Re: Tianeptine » maryhelen, posted by Racer on June 23, 2007, at 19:03:22
I'm seeing a different P Weds., so have written this one down to discuss. I understand it is not available in the United States. Is anyone on it? I understand it is indicated for those who have failed to respond to the usual SSRIs.
I'm pretty sure I have TRD (treatment resistant depression). I don't know if I was always this way. I think maybe I did respond to a couple SSRIs and an SNRI in the past. But now, I don't.
I'm following another thread about an atypical antipsychotic, Clozaril (clozapine), indicated for schizophrenia, especially those who have failed to respond to the usual atypical antipsychotics.
It's becoming confusing as both ADs and atypical antipsychotics are being prescribed for ... depression!!!
Wish I could take u w/ me 2 my appt Racer, as I'm less well-educated than u re: the pharmacology of psychiatric medications.
My profession was a med transcr*ptionist. I had to pay more attn to 'not capitalizing generic meds' and 'capitalizing brand name meds', than to the pharmacology of the medications.
I've been glued to my bed far too long, not even logging onto pute.
I'm on nothing but Xanax 2mg t.i.d. (three times a day) and 75mg Lyrica as h.s. (hour of sleep). See, that's the transcr*ptionist in me.
I begin to 'shake fiercely' in 2-3hrs after a Xanax dosage time if I've forgotton to take it.
I tend 'to forget' to take my Xanax, I think, sort of deliberately, because, 'I'm embarrassed to admit I need it' or 'Nervousness has become one of my traits' or 'I'm afraid I'll be called an addict and get one of the usual lectures'.
This is, for me, another confusing cunundrum. Is it addiction or dependence?
I cannot not mention I had a nervous system breakdown which was 'extremely physical' and lacking in any mental dysfunction, but there is 'no code' for this in the coding book in medical records at the hospitals, afa I know. Saying I had a 'nervous breakdown', is taken incorrectly. There are assumptions I stripped naked and ran screaming down the street!(?)
Anyway, I'm feeling I need some help. I'm thinking, 'She needs detox!' just came to some of your minds.(?) I know not all.
I can't seem to get the help I need from 'therapy' or 'family', so will once again turn to a drug.
Yes, I do reach out. If u called the local warm line (non-suicidal line) and said my name, most all peer supports, therapists, or clinicians would recognize it. I'm afraid if I stop talking, I'll stop moving forward, or stop ' trying' to move forward.
A lot of u have known me for more than a couple years. If any1 has any thoughts about what might help me out of my rut, it's cool to say here or by babble feature. I'll even promise not to dodge anti-benzo remarks.
It's clear 2me I'm depressed. Think 'my confusion' is a part of it.
I can't say for sure it is 'clinical' depression or 'incident induced' depression. (I know that's not the proper wording.) I'm a bit of a drama queen and have quite a strong (I don't mean 'strength' strong.) personality as well. I have this sort of 'ignorant courage'. If there's something to be tried, it's likely I'll try it, even at my own risk, w/o knowing all the facts.
I feel the state I'm in may have 'become clinical' over time. Can this happen? I think, after many years, maybe yes.
I've never been psychotic. I have little to 'no symptoms' of bipolarity.
My 'labels' (disdain) are 'depression and anxiety' or 'generalized anxiety disorder' or 'borderline personality disorder'.
I'll check back w/ u all tomorrow, Tuesday. Hope all well.
tks, 5f
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