Posted by Quintal on August 23, 2007, at 19:06:27
In reply to Re: I'm on Xanax, posted by Meri-Tuuli on August 23, 2007, at 12:49:08
>Well that sounds very sensible...and if you don't you'll have me to reckon with!
Oooh eeehh Mistress Meri!!! Honestly, today I haven't taken anything - no codeine, alprazolam, anything psychoactive at all, and I feel fine. I think the benzos have helped me break that final string hanging on from my codeine habit. So I have an opportunity. Will I take it? I hope so. I have to take my dad shopping for something tomorrow, and that's always stressful, for a number of reasons. So tomorrow will be the test of my mettle. If I can make it through that without relapsing I can handle anything.
>Yes, thats what I thought about Mr Mathers too. I quite like some of his songs. I wasn't keen on 'Slim Shady' but some of the recent stuff like the one which is totally anti-iraq was good, as was the one for his movie......
I haven't seen any of his new material! I will look and see. I was just listening to this old track, Sing For The Moment, and thinking how very apt it was.
Today my dad stood on the dog as he was closing the door to leave. I heard the dog scream, then him bellow "Shut-the-f*ck-up!", and by the sounds of it <yelp>, kicked her out of his way. It made me so angry. He does something like this nearly every day. But I thought, yeah, dad, that's you down to T.
I'd almost forgotten about this, but my mother once told me that when he used to be left alone to bath me, he would rinse the shampoo out of my hair by holding me by the ankles and plunging my head under the bath water until I'd start to panic and choke. Apparently I was terrified of it, and I used to tell my mother, but he always denied it, except one day she waited in the bedroom, listening, and she caught him doing it. I don't remember a thing about this, so it could just be something she made up to try and poison me against him, but that sound like something he'd do, and I know I had a phobia of water until I was about eight - well that would explain it eh?! I mean, no wonder we're so f*cked up! I much prefer the company of animals to human beings. And I hope my dad gets bitten one day.
You know, I think rap is one of the few mediums that can express all that pent up anger and frustration, and aggression, that mistreated people feel. Nothing ever came close until I listened, really listened, to Eminem.
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It's why we sing for these kids that don't have a thing
Except for a dream and a f*cking rap magazine
Who post pinup pictures on their walls all day long
Idolise their favourite rappers and know all they songs
Or for anyone who's ever been through sh*t in they lives
So they sit and they cry at night, wishing they die
Till they throw on a rap record, and they sit and they vibe
We're nothing to you, but we're the fuckin' sh*t in their eyes
That's why we sieze the moment, and try to freeze it and own it
Squeeze it and hold it, 'cos we consider these minutes golden
And maybe they'll admit it when we're gone
Just let our spirits live on, through out lyrics that you hear in our songs
And we can[Chorus:]
Sing with me, sing for the year
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tear
Sing with me, just for today
Maybe tomorrow, the good Lord will take you away.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=12wvV39aFc4
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