Posted by Maxime on December 8, 2007, at 14:03:27
In reply to Re: Hospital admission put off until tomorrow. Â » Maxime, posted by Sonic_gb on December 7, 2007, at 21:18:12
I would be frustrated as well. I hope you see someone soon. Being in a psych "place" can make your depression worse.
I can't go back to the hospital. I was disgnosed as having "a little bit" of borderline personality disorder (borderline borderline!). Once you get tainted with that disorder, no one wants to touch you. That's why they discharged me from the hostpital. The pdoc said that meds would never help me. That is untrue because some meds have worked in the past. And anyone can have a "ittle bit" of borderline personality disorder.
Take care.
Maxime
> Maxime,
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> If you are having suicidal thoughts with a plan then you need to be readmitted somewhere this weekend. Don't feel like the first hospitalization was a failure. How can such a short stay like that be a cure-all? It sounds like you still need some med adjustments. And do you follow up regularly with a caseworker or psychiatrist? Do they know what's going on right now? You have to be honest with them. How's your support network in terms of friends and family?
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> I had a pretty frustrating day. I think I'm more hopelessly depressed and and definitely more sleep deprived than pre-admission. And although I'm pretty suicidal too, I'm not in much of a position to act on anything except for the fact that I am here voluntarily.
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> There is one psychiatrist for this 12 patient facility. Apparently, he comes in for ~2 hours each weekday. He did not see me today. He saw one patient and left. So I have no treatment plan, other than withdrawing from all benzos and stopping Wellbutrin. Today and the coming weekend feel like a complete waste of time. I slept for 2 hours last night, and haven't eaten in 24 hours. The nurses don't seem to know what to do with me. None of the other patients seem as remotely badly off as I am (maybe its just self-pity). I'm wondering if I'm in the wrong place. I will be back at work on 12/17 whether I'm stable or not, otherwise I think my career will be over. So to not have a treatment plan of any kind depresses me terribly. And they forgot to order the right dose of Nozinan, so I didn't have any last night, and none for tonight either. So another sleepless night ahead.
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> Anyways, enough rambling self-pity. Maxime, after looking back through some archives, it looks like we have a *lot* in common. I would like to babblemail you if you are interested. That way maybe we could get into a little more detail? I'm not sure if I can figure out babblemail from my Blackberry anyways... Keep in touch and please take care of yourself.
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> Sonic
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