Posted by Racer on December 9, 2007, at 14:05:11
In reply to Re: Flattness- yxibow, posted by your#1fan on December 9, 2007, at 13:30:57
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> But yea it is some kinda of form of melecolic type depression.No, what you've described has never fit any description of melancholic depression that I've ever read. You become agitated, and at least hypomanic -- or possibly full blown manic. You're also hypersensitive to perceived rejection, again, not typical of melancholic depression.
>>but now that i think of it, its boredom, with agitatedness.
OK, that sounds much more accurate. You have a low tolerance for boredom, and a history of agitation. That is not symptomatic of melancholic depression.
The rejection sensitivity might be symptomatic of atypical depression, but combined with the agitation, the apparent temper tantrums you've displayed or reported here, the wild swings from "I'm doing great" to "I'm the most depressed person here," I'd vote for either some flavor of bipolar or a personality disorder. Either way, taking Prozac isn't cutting it for you, clearly. And either way, medications alone won't teach you the coping skills that will do you the most good.
By the way, boredom is part of life. It's not pathological. There's no diagnostic code for boredom. It's something most all of us have to learn to cope with -- and for some people, that's harder than for others. Therapy will help with it, if you choose to make the effort.
Here's something I've learned over the years: no one will improve, with any treatment out there, unless or until he or she is ready to make that choice. Until one is ready to make the effort to change, until one is ready to work at therapy and work at practicing new coping skills, nothing will change. The choice is always our own -- is it worth the effort to make changes, or am I going to stay where I am now?
Maybe a new question for you to ask yourself is this: what is it you're getting out of your current situation and current condition that prevents you from seeking meaningful help? If you weren't getting something out of it, you'd have chosen to take action long ago...
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