Posted by Reggie BoStar on December 22, 2007, at 5:18:05
In reply to Things are looking up, posted by Squiggles on December 21, 2007, at 21:15:58
It's good to hear from someone doing better with anti-depressant medications.
My pet posts were usually in the anger and frustration categories. I've been on all sorts of meds and in all kinds of programs over the years, and every time one of them fell through I'd go on the internet on a real tear.
Exhaustion got to me too, in my case ending the posting and making me resign myself to trying something else. So far my luck hasn't been all that great - not even with ECT, which a few years ago was "the last resort". Now it's old news, and there are new "last resorts" being offered up by my pdoc and psychologist.
One thing that keeps me going more often than not is the thought of where I might be if I did nothing at all. Sometimes I don't have to try very hard. If I screw up my refills so that I have to go more than a few days without a particular med, I soon realize that things could be a lot worse. It seems that even though I'm still miserable most of the time, my meds are doing some maintenance work to keep me from suffering even more.
Sometimes my sister will help me remember this. She'll get in my face with something like "what good is it if you're not getting better?" When I tell her I'm also not getting worse, she acts as though she never considered that possibility. it sure helps ME consider it!
I don't tell her about the times when my life was in immediate danger. That's another place I'd rather not go back to.
So it really is good to hear from someone who's noticing an improvement, not just that things aren't getting worse. Any sign of anything positive is a boost for me, so thanks for sharing.
Good grief, no need for apologies ever. I've found over time that the good folks here understand all the important things, such as what I'm really saying when I post messages that I later fear might have been extreme or inappropriate.
Not only that, but you went the extra mile of posting some good news. I usually just disappear after I've let off some steam.
Anyway, best wishes and again I'm glad things are looking up for you.
Reggie BoStar
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