Posted by henryo on January 2, 2008, at 2:21:21
DEPLIN, ( L-methylfolate ) is the most fantastic (actually the only fantastic) anti-depressant I have ever taken. I know all these meds work differently for each of us (I know too well) but for me this stuff worked like a light switch. I feel like I’m supposed to feel. It is like that movie “Awakenings”. The cost of depression to my life and in my relationships is incalculable, truly devastating. This is like being Rip Van Winkle. I wake up and here are the tatters of my life. But I can handle all this and start in patching it up. I feel good. The past is past. I don’t feel that enervating, debilitating and overwhelming emotional pain. And in case you think I’m a shill for some pharmaceutical company, you can look up my posts for over ten years. Many people have suffered worse but I’ve done my share.
So, I went to my Pdoc and told him that the Lamictal was keeping my head above water. I knew I’d be far worse without it. But sometimes the immense sense of grief, or what ever that crazy continuous malevolent pain is, kept me in bed all day. Being around people made me feel like weeping. So he gave me a scrip for Emsam and Deplin (haven’t tried the Emsam. Don’t need to.) Well the $50 scrip for Deplin isn’t covered by Blue Cross, because Deplin is prescription “medical food.” (Don’t you love those guys?) So OK, I’ll try anything I can afford.
I had no expectations of any kind except maybe that it might dry up my mouth, give me the shakes or kill my sexuality. (It doesn’t) Then over night, just like that I feel all right. I wake up at a normal time and get tired at night (like I am now). It is astounding. There is plenty of wreckage, but I am able to move forward. If there were one person who reads this and has the same reaction as I have had then that would be WAY cool. You can research it all you like on line, I have. I’m not going to go into all its speculated modes of action. I just want to say. I have suffered. I don’t like it. Today I feel normal. Not mentally ill. Happy. I wish that this stuff would be for everybody what it has been for me.
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