Posted by Justherself54 on February 23, 2008, at 17:06:22
In reply to Re: Emsam insomnia - DESPERATE for help!, posted by satsumas on February 23, 2008, at 14:48:56
> i have never tried klonopin but im guessing my dr. wont be for giving me a benzo...plus i have concentration and motivation problems...not sure how that would affect me. last thing i need is to feel more withdrawed from the world and sluggish.
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> you know sometimes i think that at least the negative emotions, even if they are intense, are at least emotions and part of being alive. i just wish they didn't so often turn into obsessions, ruminations, and wear me out.
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> I know God gives everyone crosses to bear in life but he also offers hope and through faith, the strength to bear such crosses. But for how long and for what purpose....I pray and have not an answer yet....all the while it feels life goes on without me and my problems have yet to resolve themselves....the older i get the more i fear these troubles either hold me back from my peers or put me on a sidways path.
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> I know there are no easy answers to these questions that everyone with mood issues faces, but I struggle with putting too much expectation in medication, and then putting not enough. Sometimes I feel like just a drug seeker, looking for the next novel fix of something in my brain, rationalized by my "depression" not abating...then other times I get angry and jealous of these studies I read about some medication or the other (or some strange not intuitive combination) actually, finally, working for someone...and it changing their lives for the better.
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> I just dont know how long I can go on with hope that is never fulfilled.Don't give up..I know how frustrating it is trying to find the right med and what's it like to feel your brain chemicals have betrayed you..I hope you discuss with your doctor the insomnia problem..I have had to increase all my sleep meds to deal with the insomnia, but the payoff is relief..pure relief..from depression and isolation..hang in there..and you may have to get a little hard nosed with your doctor is he's not listening to you about the insomnia..it's no fun rolling around the bed all night watching the clock every hour!
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