Posted by B2chica on August 4, 2008, at 10:17:51
In reply to Re: Meds causing anorexia? B2chica, posted by JESSsMom on July 27, 2008, at 10:58:51
i DID tell my pdoc about this and he doesn't seem worried at ALL about this!
sorry for the delay. i was out all last week at home. from such severe depression, very suicidal, withdrawl from meds, and no will left.
he "suggested i start zyprexa again" but i didnt want to do anything so i didn't.
he never TOLD me to, just suggested it. some doc.i saw him again last week and he STILL didnt seem worried about my lack of eating. he just kept saying well, WHEN you start eating again, just start slow with soups or such.
h@ll, he didn't even care that i stopped going to work.
my T on the other hand DID care and WAS worried and was trying to contact him.
last thursday i saw her and she bought me a fruit smoothie and asked if i could 'drink somthing'. i had a few sips in session. and drank half of it that day and the other half the next day (it was a huge glass).now i started zyprexa, which was hard to get down to, wish i had the zydis to take.
but i can still only barely get one meal a day down.but that is so WAY better than nothing like i was doing.
i just don't understand my pdoc.
i know i need a new one. but i WANT him to work. i want him to be aggressive and assertive with me. to take the wheel when i'm dying inside and i have no will to drive myself. i need to tell him this.
i hope i can. i see him again tomorrow.the zyprexa has brought me back into the land of the living and the suicidal thoughts have finally subsided (except one or two a day). but the desire to act is gone.
but i still feel i need more. and i just don't know what else is out there.
(without gaining weight.)***********************************
God help me, i'm so tired of this same old fight.
i need to hang on, cuz i know my littleone needs me. but such a part of me just wants to be done.
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