Posted by francesrose on August 8, 2008, at 5:47:52
As I mentioned in my post yesterday, one of the things I've come to terms with is that I have a tendency to blame my job for my anxiety/depression. After having 7 jobs in the past 10 years (and the fact that I'm about to start my 8th), I think the common denominator is me. :)
Medication/therapy helps, but job-stress really gets to me. I need to stop the pattern which seems to be that I start a new job, everything is peachy-keen then I hit a point where I start having a hard time with coworkers -take everything they say too seriously/personally, start getting into perfectionism and people-pleasing, can't say no, take on too much, worry, worry, worry. Before long, I'm completely stressed out and anxious and worked up. I start looking for a new job with less stress, find one and start the pattern all over again. Yeesh.
It's weird because I just get totally sucked into drama, but it's almost like I seek it out and/or create it. I get obsessive about problems at work, but not at home. My husband and I have an okay relationship, we work things out, have fun together (when I'm not depressed/anxious, but even then he makes me laugh). My kids are great, wonderful, I love them to pieces. We have some financial trouble, but I grew up poor so I don't stress out about it too much. Worklife just freaks me out. What's up with that? I'm going to the doc today to get medication because I really don't want to screw up the new job I'll be starting. I just know that if I don't deal with this, in six months, I'll have some new issue and won't be able to tolerate the people I'll work with/for for whatever reason. Anyone else have such problems?
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