Posted by linkadge on August 13, 2008, at 15:57:08
In reply to Re: Withdrawal from Effexor and Lunesta » B2chica, posted by SLS on August 13, 2008, at 15:10:29
I remember than when I was taking zopiclone, I would wake up in a good mood that lasted most of the day. It was just nice to wake up from a relatively good sleep feeling mildly sedated without a million thoughts in my mind. I felt more of a buffer during the day, like my thoughts weren't attacking me. It allowed me to have more moments where I felt ok. I could just sit and enjoy the moment more.
When I get really depressed and anxious I start to leave my body. I start to travel into scarry places that my mind creates that are so detached from the world around me. I respond to very little, I can't hear, see, or feel what is going on around me. I am just locked in that world of fear and uncertainty. I become helpless because I don't know who I am. I can't get back to who I am. Sometimes, the slightest amount of stress puts a big thick plank between who I currently am and who I am as a whole.
For me, anything can can ground me and pull me back into the world around me usually helps my depression. Most of the SSRIs worsen that state and make me feel even more detached. I don't need something to push me more away from myself than I already am. I need something that can just bring me back to myself just enough so that I can say, "oh yeah, thats who I am", so that I can remember the reasons why I am doing what I am doing.
methyphenidate or atomoxetine can be grounding and can help me stay in my body in the presence of adversity. They keep my brain from pulling out too far and locking me in those hellish places. *Certain* sedatives and benzodiazapines can also really help my mood. A low dose of lorazepam, oxepam, or zopiclone can help ground me.
I can't take them chronically in high doses as this usually abolishes the best coping strategies.
Its about helping me get back into the zone, I guess. Not a place of being high, just a place where I can feel ok for long enough to let my brain rest and redirect myself. Sometimes just a nudge here and there can go a long way.
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