Posted by HyperFocus on September 8, 2008, at 20:51:39
Bipolar II peeps: Whenever I have a positive response to an AD, as in I can feel the depression lifting off and my thoughts and emotions shifting, and I exist in this state of healthy euphoria, it lasts like 30 min and then inevitably I get really major depressed like sadness and obsessive thoughts and anxiety and all the rest. There is no real intermediate time between these states. If I had a stopwatch in fron of me I could pinpoint the exact time down to the minute when my thoughts and feelings reverse and all I roll back into this really bad depression. And I can alternate between these states nearly every hour. Apart from this, most of the time I seem to go up and down different grades of depression with no real life events to warrant the onsets.
I've actually been this way for a very long time. I just thought the particular ADs I was on weren't 'strong' enough to handle my depression. But I've been reading this: http://www.psycheducation.org/bipolar/frameset.html
and a lot of the stuff there hit home with me. Most of the ADs I tried either did nothing or brought on really bad states of depression. I know most ADs are contraindicated in bipolar but I never considered I might be bp (I had this typical idea of what mania was and I was pretty sure I didn't have that, quite the opposite.)Has anybody heard of or experienced really rapid cycling like what I seem to be experiencing?
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