Posted by bert99 on September 11, 2008, at 11:21:23
Is it too much to ask for? Why can't I just be happy? Why is there no middle ground?
I am waiting on a referral to a psychiatrist that will probably take months to go through.
I am fiddling with my lamictal dosages and doing it blindly at best. I am pretty much doing this on my own. I'm trying my best and I just feel like giving up at times.
100 mg was too low and caused me to cry all night last night. However the irritability levels went way down and the background chatter was significantly less than before.
I enjoyed two days of relative tranquility then last night I couldn't stop crying, so I took 200 mg.
This morning I woke up and the chatter is back again. Thinking of things to do, worrying about things, my stomach hurts, people piss me off, god I have all this stuff to do today, better make lists of things to do, oh why did I say that yesterday, oh I have all these things to do tomorrow, better check the computer..... and on and on and on and on.....
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I just want to give up.
Do I stay with 200? cut down to 150? My dr. said I am at such a low dose that it won't even be an effective mood stabilizer, and that I am just hanging on by a thread.
I want to get in today to see him to see if I can augment this with one of the meds that you all suggested in a previous thread.
He seems to want to push the tegretol again. Last time I took it I was completely out of it for three weeks. He doesn't seem to get it. I need to function. I have two little precious girls that need their mommy to be there for them.
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