Posted by JNew12 on October 27, 2008, at 2:39:21
In reply to hepatitis and Nardil » jnew12, posted by azalea on October 18, 2008, at 14:18:59
Hey, you three!
It's real late at night and I just wrote Phillipa a message, but the first part of it might as well be addressed, me to you three.
I want to thank you for calling me out and telling me how dangerous of a mix of nardil and adderall was. With pills I always took a stance like I was invincible, shoot I used to eat whole fentanyl patches. The mix I stopped once and I had a party w/ people I did not see in three years and wanted energy but had a very bad reaction, even though not a hypertensive crisis it easily could of happened I was going to save them, but now I am thinking I should flush them.
I always be fascinated with medicine, that is why this place interests me, but I don't think i truly respected pills, I thought I could do whatever I want, I can not count the time I played doctor. Matter of fact I used to Opiate addict maybe that why I never really learned to have a normal doctor patient relationship also because the trust was never there.
Shoot, I was happy if I came home with some scheduled, I probably knew of every drug to ask for that could potentate and make the other drugs stronger, and I did this mostly by lying. But, I am on suboxone now and through with addiction, and having to go from one doctor to another lying to maintain it (thank god).
Thanks for making me realize that there is responsibility on the patient too, I never really understood that. But, now I am suffering from major depression,social anxiety, and bad stomach problems. I could never understand why the most I could keep a doc was a month before. I am for the first time realizing that I need to tell my doctors everything including stuff I don't want to like addiction, and also tell each doctor about each doctor, and stop scoring the same meds from them each even if they are only xanax, or klonopins.
My main goals is not worrying about getting high anymore, but better.
I also realize I need to stop doing things because people have done it on the net and lived through it, i guess that me wanting to play doctor again.
I got four doctors now, the most I ever had and really want to feel well for once in my life, and I hope with my new attitude it will happen.
Thanks.
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