Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on November 9, 2008, at 22:29:11
In reply to What would help you feel supported? » rjlockhart04-08, posted by Geegee on November 9, 2008, at 21:31:38
West.....thank you for your advice. I'm pissed because my past, i said somethings for just attention, yet i did abuse.
The fact of the matter, i'm ready to take 20 people, you want come in to this matter an argue? please come, i didnt start this, i say things that i didnt mean sometimes. Now in the response, i will get the facts down, and tell people if there assumption is right. Here it is,
1)Asperger's Disorder, but in reponse to that, alter ego's where created because my own mind was going to breakdown, i did breakdown, did not contact family, because.....they would say "go to psych ward", i never tell my psychiatrist i have alter ego's, because first off all, there not dominant in life, they only will "give" a warm feeling, as if another person was supporting, but it's the mind. That's sad.... I'm still "rj", i just have mother and father in my head that are my age. No i'm not crazy, its called people are "blind".
2)The control issues until i was 20-1, where out of control. I never grew out of 18 years of age, result, the feeling of not knowing who to talk to. Characters where created, by how i need to talk, one is dominant, and will take control when have panic attacks. I'm put, in the back. The other one, gives advice on why this is happening. But its mind, split into its own ego's. The main thing is to get me back to just a normal, functional personal. My therpist, i am going to have to get another one, he is old, lies "no! you where late" i called him and he was helping other patients on the phone, wasted 30min of the session, only 15 to do meditation.
I dont feel bad my put downs, because my brain decided to outsmart, and reveal what they are doing, it turned into anger, idenity problems. I am changing into persona's but, i need to grab all of them and make them one.
Some people just let people to take control of them and be put into a catagory....My mind has altered into the exact will just call there cards, i dont care if it's my mother, well i've yelled at her so hard, i dont know how she didnt go death....all she said "you look angry".: Now, go get the groceries, and go to your room, i sat her down, "i'm warning you, this will come back because God see's the deciet, and the bad fruit people will eventaully eat, and they will become ashamed"
Then, as in Revelation : I saw a new earth, and a new earth, and I heard a great voice from the throne behold the dwelling of God is with men, and God himself will be with them; he will wipe every tear from there eyes, and death shall be no more, no crying, nor pain/morning anymore, for these things shall have passed away.
"As for cowardly, faithless, the polluted, as the murder's, foienicates, sourcer's, idolter's, and ALL liars, their lot shall be in the lake that burns with life and brimestone.In my term's i ate my own bad fruit, which was not all my seed i planted, people mislead me, and i got confused when i was young. Then it turned into perception problems. Now, this is my fault, because of a defect that is proably apparant in the brain. I had a CAT scan done, there is a tumor, small, at the lower back of the brain. It's not dangerous, but i do believe it had some effect with developing, growing up normal. Alot of people have horrible pasts, i forgot mine, and defend and will tell people the facts.
And any refuse, "i dont want to hear it", its called arrogance. That also represents who your moral ego is.
Last words.....I'm compassionate, nice, but there is a side of me, you dont want to see. It began in 2006, and i was takin NO stimuant medication from 2005-2008.
I'll leave it at that. It's also taught me, why are people questioning you? what the logic? or the emotion? Hug?
The world is corrupt, God's grace if you give up your life, and say "I will follow and serve you" he will bless you. I already have.
i'll still be here...
rj
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