Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on December 13, 2008, at 15:51:51
In reply to Re: 'mental illness, in brain scans' » rjlockhart04-08, posted by yxibow on December 13, 2008, at 0:53:19
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_____________________________________________Well...knowing myself over the years, i just know, that stimulants do have a benefit effect, not caffiene, mostly the main stream medications for ADHD: dextroamphetamine. Stimulants do help, with just overall looking at life, it's actually more an "antidepressant" and "susutained attention, and motivation, to what ever you are intrested in doing".
See...Seroquel was given to me for sleep, my doctor wrote a scipt for 200mg at night....eee huu, that made so "warped out" the next day, i was very off. 100mg at night, sometimes is taken, but Seroquel, my doctor insists, taking it for anxiety, and i have told him...in depth what the effect is, it causes mental "slowing", there are some benefits, reduced "negative" feelings. But...i talked with him, Seroquel lasts 12 hours. And i dont want to feel, that way all the time. There is medication, which i asked....Compazine which has a very short half life (4-6hours) and is used for nausea and dizziness. He doenst agree on that, because he said there more risk's with it, because of lowering white blood cell count.
I dont argue, i just say "i agree".
You see, during alot of periods of time, i go from emotions, "deep" that are so rooted down, it kills me. I wrote a post, that i regret because it showed just "horror" that i feel, and the sadness that i am the way...i am. (There was clip, showed...which (was a movie) but if you look at it, if someone you see in agony, and you can't do anything, it's painful. But, that was an example of just what i felt of my "mind, idenity, and who i am "really" with out any masks, or persona's" Seeing an old idenity, that is there. You have to destroy it. Too make the pain go away, and then "new perona's" created, took over.
[let me not get so detailed]....SORRY;)
But reading your post about.....a more insightful view, of treatment, it's not all, just treatment. I've learned, the mind has to be aware it's in pain, and it can stragize to re-do, and have "inner compassion" because, no one has ever cared, just abused, and....when that happens, idenities that are there maybe for a "support" system. To help the original ego, it "created artifical ego's"There alot of deep stuff that happened, it's unbearable, "1000" knives inside, stabbing you, immidiatly the mind creates, something to help instead of letting itself die.
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But... back to the main subject, Xanax is the "pain reliever" of all emotional, and psychical reactions from panic, either from stimuli from outside or inside. That's the best medication that works currently. Stimulants, used with a tranqilizer, creates a synthergy of focus, but reduces the "irriblity" of dexamphetamine. My doctor, went ahead, take 3 spansules, with 1mg of Alprazolam. And he is a "benzo-hater" but, i described in the last session very directly, all things, that my therist doenst even listen, or understand. He.....just sat and looked, and gave me his opinion on results of trama, but i was never abused at ALL. It's a result of losing focus, and constant negetive feeling of self, to the point where, it too deep to describe..
And your right now, i'm fine....feel nothing negative, it's usally "hit's" of a memory, that pop up, and i react, alter personality may come out, and function just like "me", and throw me aside because i'll have a public breakdown, so that is somewhat of good way of handling it. I'm just me right now, there's no stress, only if a thought that comes and "hurts", i have to be away, to get out of it.
Thanks, and if i didnt address something you where implying, just respond back, i admit, i kinda "get off subject" and get annoying. It's just me....:)
Thanks for the response.
rj
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